Or does it???
Whenever I hear that dreaded word CANCER
Whenever I hear CHEMOTHERAPY
Dread and saddness grip my heart.
It sounds simple really doesn't it?
You have cancer......you will have chemotherapy.....you will lose your hair....
Facts.................
Straightforward facts..................
IF ONLY IT WERE THAT SIMPLE!
Pictures speak a 1000 words
So when I hear of somebody facing chemo here is what goes through my mind................
Hair loss
Chemicals in your body making you feel ill and strange
Poisen
Canulas and the attempts to get them in
Fear - Fear - Fear
Mushed up brain - chemo brain - unable to put words into sentences
Forgetting words and names
Missing part of your life
Gaps
Big big big gaps
Body weakness
Fall in fitness
Aches in bones
Fear - Fear - Fear
Tiredness
So tired you can't listen to music or even talk
Steroids
Fat fingers
Slow recovery
Hardened veins
Pain constant pain
Feeling as though you have aged 40 years over night
Fear - Fear - Fear
Heart burn
Loss of Control
Tablets - lots and lots and lots of tablets
Emotional lows
Grief and loss
Mourning
Fear - Fear -Fear
Speechless... I have also had the core biopsy test a couple of times so I recognise that photo.. as for the rest hun .. You are a real life hero.. xx
ReplyDeleteOK, my dear, it's all this and more. It stinks. The whole thing stinks... but there will be an end to it.
ReplyDeleteNow you must write a list of reasons for the bright light at the end of the tunnel...reasons for living. That bright light is still there and you need to focus on something positive.
Actually, this is a good way to get the anger out. Writing out the scary, angry, horrible part of cancer treatments is how you deal with some of it. Just try, please, to see the end of it. It will happen.
And... I think that the baldness is attractive and it shows bravery. Tell everyone that.
Take care.
Your experience with chemotherapy was different from mine...I won't say it was a breeze because it wasn't -- but I was blessed with each treatment going as planned, no problems with getting the needles in and very little stomach upset. Was it a walk in the park? No. It was like climbing a hill that seemed to get bigger each time and yet I soon knew I would be at the top. I experience no fear either, however, when you have had a less than pleasant experience with it, fear is a natural reaction when you hear the word chemotherapy and I would say Sara, that most people have had experiences like you did. As I said, I was blessed and I am well aware of that and yet I still would never take it lightly...I know it for what it is. Poison. You never, ever take that lightly.
ReplyDeleteAnd because of the experience you had I am so pleased for you that it wasn't necessary when cancer made an encore in your life. It was enough to have to stare that beast in the face again. And you did it brilliantly! ♥