Sunday, 27 February 2011

Re-Visiting the Past

SerimalB in a Pickle "Pickles" just months old, she will be 7 years old next month
This weekend I seem to have been guided back into my past. I am not sure why because I tend not to look back and I certainly don't have any regrets in my life. I think that my trip into Wrexham town with the boys might have started the process, as we walked around once familiar streets, streets I have walked for over 40 years, remembering, thinking, mourning the changes.

I decided to pay a visit to John and Ruth, the couple I used to groom for over 30 years ago. They gave me my first pony Shilo who was a rescue and I later had my last horse Mac there. I went to many shows with John over the years and helped him prepare the ponies for classes..... Cadenza and Opal. I saw little Pickles when she was minutes old and helped back and school horses for him. Happy, care free days.
May 26th 1983 - English Class, Ysgol Dewi Sant
I particularly remember his goat "Gruff" and this one day, John left a cardboard box full of vegetable peelings near to him. Gruff ate the box and left the peelings! I still giggle about this decades on.
It was quite a sad experience returning there because John and Ruth have grown so old and the puppy I last saw is now an old dog with cataracts. I still feel as though I am 19 but facing my past I have to accept my mortality.
Harry Llewelyn

Chirk Castle gardens, me, Harry and Joe looking for fish and dragonflies
I have spent alot of time thinking over the last couple of years and wishing things had been different. I wish I hadn't had cancer because the long treatment which made me so ill, robbed me of my childrens youth. One minute they were 7 and 9 and the next minute they had grown up before my eyes. I feel as though I have missed out on a vital part of their lives.

My past has shaped me into the person I am today. The people who come in and out of my life at various times are the ones who have enriched me.


  1. You are so right your experiences in life make you the person you are.. .. You either choose to learn from it, and use your new awareness to enjoy your life to the full and enrich the lives of those you are close to.. or you don't and remain stunted. Your children will benefit from your growth in spirit xx

  2. How awful about your dog, Sara. We are truly sorry to hear this. Our hearts go out to you.

    Love ya lots
    Maggie and Mitch


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